To do or not to do

I feel the need to explain my job to some of you. I may post really cute photos and talk about some of the good stuff, but you should understand that is roughly 10% of my job. The rest of it involves doing dishes, cleaning cages, doing laundry, sweeping & mopping, scrubbing pools, prepping formula, cutting up meat, fruits & veggies, and the constant maintenance around the Hollow. This can be anything from setting up a cage for an animal to be upgraded, to repairing the cage, and many other things I can’t quite think of. For those of you who saw me running from a cow in Texas on My New Wild Life on Animal Planet you might understand only a smidge better.

Of course I also have to deal with side that isn’t fun to talk about and also is what causes the most emotional distress. The cases that I can’t repair and mend, or the phone call about something that is just beyond what we can help, a full grown deer or some animal (normally a bald eagle) that is out in the water. It is hard to explain to people while being empathetic that is just quite unsafe to do a water rescue for both the animal and the rescuer.

I have also heard my job referenced to the “Dawn” commercials. As that is what we do in rehab. Granted, there are rehab facilities that are dedicated to this, IBRRC, Tri-state, and many more. But as for me… well I helped with washing 2 birds this summer, a pigeon and a barn owl. I also know that my seasonal rehabber, Jessica; volunteer, Heather, education coordinator, Shona, and intern Kate, washed another barn owl this weekend (it fell into a pit toilet at American camp—so you can guess what they had to wash off…ewww).

I hear from time to time that my job isn’t demanding, or stressful. I merely want to laugh at this. Yes, physical stresses can be limited, but when something comes up it generally takes all the strength you have anything from trying to wrestle or move a full size deer to scaling steep hillsides to nab a raptor, wadding in mucky, smelly Westcott bay to net a great blue heron. I know I can still here your head going cool! Which after the fact, you can think that, but you also think good god, I could have been easily hurt. Of course everyday you work, you are dealing with psychological & emotional stresses. Even on good days, those being days I don’t have to euthanize anything or have anything die. We are still dealing with phone calls, attempting to help people understand situations, or trying to find a volunteer to pick up an animal. Plus even if all animals are “healthy” there are always concerns with specific critters.

I don’t if this put anything in perspective, but I think I have hopefully helped you realize that rehab isn’t all fun and games. It is tough work (and by that I mean a good 12 hours plus on call in the summer).

I want to go here

Black Sea Castle, Yalta, Russia/Ukraine

Offload

Hold onto your hats, I am going to do something that I very rarely do – people that are close to me don’t even see me do. That is throw some emotions out there.

I am a very guarded person with all of my feelings, be those good or bad, because well, I think it had to be something growing up, or maybe just the way teenagers are mean, so I learned to just keep things to myself. That in it self can be quite self-destructive, and right now, I can feel the effects. I can’t exactly say what the effects are; I just know that I am to a point that I feel completely and utterly defeated. I just know something has to be changed and I have to do it fast. But how do you fix what you don’t know to be broken? I mean, I know some of the things that are broken, and can work on them, and just maybe that will cause a change reaction that will do an automatic fix on more of the damage that has been done. I know there is change needed, and getting there is tough.

I feel like I have been talking in code here, and I am sorry to anyone who has actually read this far (thanks for that by the way). But, it is all code to me too, a code I have been trying to break for most of the summer. There are a few thinks that I just know that I can’t change right now, and I fear they are one of those fixes that I need. I am getting itchy to travel, but something about working in the industry in which I am in, doesn’t give me much of a money cushion.

Even if I did have the funds, I really don’t know where I would go. I have some thoughts in mind, but they just lead me back to places that have some emotional tie to them (a lot of them being negative). And I think that would just continue the emotional downward spiral. I need new, something refreshing, and right now I would even be willing to do all that exploring on my own. I can only guess that in March I will be going to Chicago for work, but that isn’t set in stone yet if it will be me who would be going to the symposium or not. And there has been talk of going to up to Vancouver for some work training too, but again I don’t know when that would be, if it would even be happening this year or not. Both of trips would be helpful for me, because it would be someplace new for me.

I just don’t know. I know there are a lot of head games I have been playing with myself, consciously and subconsciously. I wake up in the morning after having some strange dream that draws up some thing from the past that just puts me in a funk and there I stay for a good part of the day. Of course, I front that everything is okay and don’t feel that I have a close relationship with anyone right now that I can offload on them, if I do; I know they are going through some tough shit and don’t feel that it would be fair of me to offload on them. So I do what I have always done, put my feelings aside and try to help them through their struggle. Someday, maybe I will learn to just say, no, I need to talk about me for a minute, but that I don’t see happening anytime soon. Okay so maybe that is what this whole blog was about, but it this was like trying to use cubic zirconium to scratch glass (it just won’t work).

R. otter fun!

R. otter fun on the waterslide

News flash

I <3 It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

It makes me laugh!

sorry, guys

Sorry, I didn't realize that the link was going to come up faulty so let me try again..... river otters

I kept my word

I'm so fired!!

Okay so everyone should just fire me from the blogging thing b/c really, it hasn't been since April!!! Where did the time go? Oh I know, taking care of babies!!! Animal babies. The season seems to be alittle slower than last year, and I put the blame on the weather. We had a few nasty weeks in June where a lot of the songbird nests failed. Babies we got in were bad shape!

So I will let you in on some of the photos I have taken over the past few months of the babies we have, I will need to get some from work. I have actually been doing a lot of my photography with the work camera b/c well we keep going, do we have pictures of this?? And the answer has been no, so this year I am trying to be very diligent on getting photos of all the different animal types on the work camera so Shona has many to chose from when it comes to writing her articles for the magazines!

Okay, so on with the show.

Well, I didn't thief any of the photos from work so I will start with what I have.

Okay, so non work stuff. I have spent some time hanging out on the island and doing something I haven't done in years and am wondering why I haven't. I went tidepooling in one of the historically lowest tides.

I got some pictures and then my batteries were dead, thank goodness our wolf hollow picture guru was with us and had her camera.

Here is a little urchin!!

A little "blood sea star" a Herica

Coral:

a decorator crab chilling in the shade:

Gooseneck barnacles:

Grandma's cove:

a sea pen of some sort:

A Pisaster and his suckers on the rock:



some tubes:

alright, on to some animal work photos. a sleepy young river otter:

The other otter who wouldn't eat (Shona feeding):

Otters first few days outside with "swim time"

Tree swallows at feed time:

Barn swallow with their wide open mouths:

Barn swallows, just chilling:

Of course, what everyone else is looking for some seal photos!! Meet Coho:

This is O'o after being sprayed:

Here is O'o being tubed by Jessica:

This is Palila:

And last but not least little Stilt. Stilt has been marked with a paint stick on the beach for monitoring purposes, and has a little humpback from me giving him sub-cutaneous fluids:

I am uploading some pictures to my google location right now, so I don't have address to send you for those but here is the closest I can get you:

here is one of the videos of the river otters, but you can look at the other videos under other videos by user check it out!!

Stay tuned....

Okay, I am working on a blog, but it won't be completed tonight, I need to thievery some photos from work :)


..... That's all folks!

Ketchup

It has been a long, long time since I have posted anything. I could blame it on leaving my computer in Seattle in March coming home from Philadelphia, but really I don’t think I still would have posted had I had my computer. I do have a lot to share then since my last posting, some animal photos, some trip photos, and just some enlightenment (not sure what that will be yet, but hopefully that will come once I hit that point).

The last few things I posted about were passed on memes and then about some dreams that were disturbing me and the last photos I shared were clear back from Thanksgiving.

So let’s start with some animal photos!!!

I have some photos of a few of the animals that have been in care, plus photos of our fawn release in December.





Background on the eagle: This eagle was my New Year’s Eve pick up… while everyone was home prepping for the Eve, I was working with the local police to catch this guy out of a steep ditch. He has a dislocated shoulder, so at least he didn’t want to fly away from me. He is still in at the center waiting to see if he can fly. The wing still pretty out of place, but we hope he can fly as he is.




Background on the Euro Rabbit: This rabbit came into the center right after Christmas; he was being attacked by an owl when the homeowner pulled into their driveway. Of course, this scared off the owl. Leaving this bunny with an eye injury, we treated with antibiotics and sent the little guy back out.


Red-tailed Hawk immature: This is/has been my most favorite animal at the center yet. Because he is incredibly gorgeous!!! He actually came in when I was home for thanksgiving after bouncing off of 2 cars! He is a little miracle. We released him at the beginning of January.



Travels In March I flew to Philadelphia, Cherry Hill, NJ for the NWRA Symposium. I spent A LOT of time in lectures and learning new things about the rehab community. Networking, finally getting to meet some of the people from PAWS in Lynwood and making some great new friends. I did get to a chance to spend one of my days there out playing in Philadelphia with my friend from this island Michael, who has moved to MD! It was fabulous; even though it was a complete downpour we still had loads of fun!!














A few weeks ago I got to go down to Sausalito, CA for some marine mammal training at The Marine Mammal Center! Man was that crazy. I got to spend 14 hours my first day at the center, because I came back that night to help feed and give subcutaneous fluids to elephant seal pups; that’s right I got to “play” with elie seals. I learned much more about pool systems, and got a good refresher on my harbor seals and regulations. In my off time I did a lot, and I mean a lot of hiking. The Mill Valley/Sausalito area is absolutely gorgeous with many National/State parks.

























As for enlightenment I can offer, well…………. I am now adding another year under my belt (and it shows lol). And all I can say is man I am starting to feel old. There are struggles every day in life, and I know I am not the only one with the struggles. But I am constantly reminded on the money I spent for a college education, yet my job isn’t showing a great return on the “investment”. I still struggle with finding “love”, though I do have to look at the fact I live on an island with minimal choices, but some “playtime” would be nice. I also know that I use elliptic and quotes way too often. I still have a tendency to let friends walk all over me, basically letting them choose what we do and also leaving me hanging way to much. (I gotsta fix that!)

A passed meme to me

My friend Zee tagged me in a meme.. so here goes.

1) Take the nearest book of more than 123 pages.
2) Find page 123.
3) Find the fifth sentence.
4) Post theext three sentences.
5) Tag some folks.

The Amber Spyglass by Philip Pullman.

She smiled. Will very nearly smiled in response, becuase he was so unused to the sweetness and gentleness a woman could put into a smile, and it unsettled him.
"You're Will," she said in that low, intoxicating voice.


Folks for the taggin: Sarah (Mrs. Nelson to Be), Gabriel, ~jEnN~, Case and Jenn, Jordan, Jason G