tell me how you truely feel

I have created a johari block.. a simple task of picking 5 or 6 words that you feel describe me, that right folks, go a head a judge me (you already know I did so pretty harshly b/c...that's just me)! Click here for the most excitement on myspace and your words count. Work every angle, think things over, let me know what you see. Hey you will have loads of fun and can even create your own when you are done. If you find a word that describes me better and you have already choosen 6; don't fret you can simply click a word again to unchose it. Okay wrapping this up, I finally got my 4 boxes in the mail from when I moved back from Hawaii, so I best go unpack those and see set up all my missing treasures once again.
Shoots

face to face with happiness

It is something that I have been pondering, and have been very distrot about where I was going. Now this story kind of has an odd beginning because my "happiness" was realized as I was taking my garbage out tonight. I know, I know, sounds a bit strange, but I looked up at the stars. I felt a sense of relief because I was/am where I am suppose to be right now. When I first arrived in Hawai'i I had a difficult time. All I wanted to do for the first few days/weeks was to get my bearings by the stars. It was harder than I thought it would be. But once I had located things I felt better, yet I still felt a bit unsettled. Being home less than a week and to look up and know exactly where things are I feel happiness. I know that there are many paths ahead of me and most will take me away from here again, but for this moment there is a relief/happiness that has washed over me. The world is out there and I feel that I am now ready to attack it.

heartbreake

It is strange the different level of heartbreak you can go through. As well as the least expected source of heartbreak. By this I mean who it can actually hurt to miss the most. This only comes to me as I am thinking about people I am missing, but who I have returned too that I have been away from for quite awhile, people that I left in Hawaii, and also people who haven't been in my life for year (s). The emotions that the human soul evokes at points of weakness can be frightening. And again, it could be the the person that you thought would be the easiest to walk away from, and yet, there are others when you say goodbye it is as if the tone is "hey, I'll see you tomorrow". It is going to be a readjustment period and of course definate reasons to return places, but the fear that they will slip far enough away that it will no longer bother me that it has been x-number of months since we have spoken or even sent just a quick note over the internet. The world has made it so easy to keep in touch, yet we make it so hard to keep communication going. Just another notch in the heartbreak wall that we raise.

Sorry for the deep thought, but it is/was something that I am especially like I was going through.

Keep it real and keep in touch.

Well I made it

As surreal as it felt I am back in Seattle. Picked up my luggage and made the journey home to North Bend. Just to be greeted by massive amounts of mail, and dishes. I thought about it this morning I should have taken before pictures I started to clean and after I even just picked up a bit. Took me 2 hours to sort through mail, note: it wasn't even all my mail. I then proceeded to start on dishes, 90% of the dishes in the house were dirty, but unfortunately the power when out. How great is it to return to cold weather and RAIN. What was I thinking. I can't complain about the house too much my bro hasn't been able to take care of it like he could b/c he has been sick. So I have unpacked, taken care of mail, and started on dishes. Just wanted to let ya'll know that I am home safely. I already miss Hawaii though.